I suck at this...

I'm not gonna change. Procrastination might as well be my middle name. Also, I will forever blame procrastination for my inability to document my own life into a blog. I had a livejournal in middle school and high school... continued it sporadically over the first couple years of college.  I stopped. It got to the point where I wondered if I was writing more for myself or more for other people. It was stressful catering to everyone else! This thing, this blogger, is definitely meant for others. Originally I made it to document my year abroad, but I'll be honest in saying that my photo-documentation will suffice for my personal nostalgia later. As for everyone else - I had and have too much going on to write the kind of entries I wish I could write. In my mind the pressure to be witty, insightful, or thorough is too much to bear. Haha. OH THE AGONY! Just talk to me, facebook me, I don't know. Figure it out. 

Less than 3 months left here in Spain. Thinking about it makes me sick to my stomach. I'm looking forward to certain things about next year, but at the same time, I hate goodbyes... and while change is good, I worry that it won't be change. It will be like stepping backwards. I don't want to go back to the life I had before Spain. I'm returning to SB. I'll have to get a job. I'll have a lot of work to do for my final year of classes. All of this just means going back to real life. This year was the escape and change I so desperately needed a year ago. I did it, and it was one of the best decisions I've ever made. It sounds cliché, but its cliché because its a common feeling. You don't know the feeling unless you've done it. I miss Spain already and I haven't even left! JODER. 

Vuelva usted mañana.

I suppose the title is fitting for this blog. Fitting for my life this year, actually. Translated directly it means, "Come back tomorrow." The Spaniards live by it. Originally, the root of it is a story written by Mariano José de Larra in his published "artículos". The article basically tells of a Frenchman -- a foreigner -- who comes to live in Spain to find support for his preconceived notions about Spanish life. Well, his stay in Spain does indeed confirm what he knew before coming: the Spanish are lazy. It takes them way longer to accomplish things than it should because of their laziness being translated into procrastination.

So finally, I have decided that today is tomorrow. What does this mean exactly? I'm ending 6 months of procrastination about updating. I don't generally live with regrets.. but I do regret not documenting the past 6 months of my life in Spain. I guess I thought about it a lot, and as each week went by I wondered if it was too late to start a blog because I knew I'd never be able to catch myself up again. In any case, I realized that another cliche fits in nicely here: "Better late than never." At least if I can finally write the first post, I'll have somewhere to start from... a base to build upon. I won't be writing much about past events... if you go through my photos you'll get an idea of what my life is like in Madrid, and the places I've traveled to. The plan for this is to write about now... so that I'll have something concrete from my year abroad. In any case... here goes...